Here it goes again...

The story of many dissappointed top scorers appear once again.
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/5/14/nation/3880204&sec=nation

It has become an annual affair.

It makes me wonder what is really "wrong" with the whole system. Obviously reflects that our country is quite far off from 'meritocracy'. Sigh....

No wonder so many people flee the country, and many not to return, after being put off by this sense of injustice. Well, at least, I'm close to being one of them. If God wills, I will return to Malaysia one day.

Forced Leave

Am on leave for three days! Glad that I've been given a break... after working like mad. Not to mention that my weekends are usually gone before i know it!

Appreciate the time i have to myself, to catch up on things that i need to look at, to take time and reflect.

Yet, am quite unhappy with all the new policies the company is implementing. From the look of it, i may not stay as long as i thought i would. No point slogging so hard for the company who doesn't appreciate its employees' effort... yet for now, i'll stick through till i've decided what i want to do.

Of course, i hope that i will be able to attend SOL... see how :)
when i quit audit. hah.

Audit Peak

have forgetten what is it like to have a free night on weekdays.
been working like **** the last few weeks. leaving office after midnight since middle of Jan. came back to work on the 3rd day of CNY. worked till 5am for 2 days consecutively. surviving only on 3+ hours of sleep.

now I'm dead tired.

thank God for a good team to work with, friends at work.
thank God for His grace. thank God for love, which helps me cope with my inner struggles.
thank God for just being here with me although I admit I didn't have a good start this year.

Being twins

Funny... only twins reading this will know how it feels.

My senior (quite crappy) said, "Eh, I tell you a secret, but don't tell anyone".

My intern and I looked at him.

"I'm a twin".

Then the intern said, "I'm a twin too!".

and of course I said, "We've got to be joking cos I'm a twin too!".

*faints*

how rare is it that in a group of 3 people, all of us are part of a twin.
haha, totally made my last day of 2008 memorable!

December

December is a month of weddings! had attended 2, turned down 1. 1 or 2 more to go. Congrats to Maureen and Elsa!

Have been thinking how fragile life is. Went to Sitiawan for a friend's wedding and the morning after the wedding, she got news that one of the wedding guest lost his life in a bus accident along the way back to Singapore. (the accident killed 10 passengers).

I was shocked. He was only 26. I wondered he could still be alive if he had gone back with the rest of the guest from Singapore. I know God has His prefect timing and is in control of all things. yet...

Then came the thought of losing my family. I blurted out a couple of weeks back that I'ld rather pass on than to live in grief. Well.... i think, i think too much.

soul searching... thinking if its all worth it.

it's exciting.... yet, my heart aches whenever i think about it.

why...

my trust, faith and patience is trully being tested... one part of me tell me that it will be all worth it. but the other part of me is really losing hope.

Men are curious...

Within 2 weeks I drove pass Geylang twice!

Why? Cause the males were curious to see what the "hype" was all about. The first male was a friend.... and the other is ahem none other than my dad!

When my guy friend proposed the idea, i was totally against it. But I myself was curious... i mean after 3 + years of being here, I have yet to see for myself what it looked like (although I have seen even more eye popping ones in Holland).... so I obliged... after taking into consideration that it wasn't just me and him in the car, of course!

So we drove by the area around 11pm. It was quite interesting to watch the people touting by the roadside. I must say that the ones in Holland were classier (if there is such word). My heart was really sadden at such a sight, really.

Told my dearie bout it n said that my parents will know nothing about it :)

But but... today, my dad came down to singapore. and after dinner, he suggested to my uncle about taking a look in geylang. Men!

anyway, we drove pass the area (this time, i took another lane)... and saw many people of a different race. how organised.... different lanes for different race.

So now that it is no secret from my parents... shhh... dun tell my leader (>.<)